He Is T-A-K-E-N

. I’m agreeing to have intimate relationship with this man without any assurance that he will love me in return. I didn’t heard any promises from him I believe that man can’t leave without sex in other word he just using me, because from the start he knows that I like him, maybe I could say he is taking advantage. Sad to think right? But what to do, the infatuation I felt with him before was turn into love now. And it’s hard for me to hide the truth because I can’t refuse every time he called me. And I hated myself for that stupid situation. I know that this relationship won’t work, and the only thing I could get is pains and heart ache. How can I run now, I give myself with him already, that time I didn’t blame him, in the since that I give it with all my heart. I loved him so much and I’m willing to take the risk to make him happy. People say it comes of loving there’s no guarantee, and in my relationship with him now I’m not expecting that he will love me back. What I want now is care, not financially but emotionally. Even he didn’t love me he deserve it, Because I felt that he cared for me also, I didn’t felt that he disrespect me, He is very gentle he knows how to handle the relationship. But only one thing I want from him, if the time will come for him to leave me, how I wish I wouldn’t cry, how I wish I will accept it will all my heart coz, I know we can’t own everything permanent in this world. How I wish that if he will decide to turn me down, I hope that he will tell me, that he will be honest on his feeling, that he will be franked on me. that he talk to me in a nice way. That if the time will come that he doesn’t care me anymore that he will realized how much he loved his wife it easy for me to let him go. If it will be happen I will keep him in my heart forever and keep in my mind as a happy memory. Haaaaay….. What to do I’m not dreaming this kind of relationship talaga, that I’m just an option and second in everyone but that was my destiny. And in the first place I can’t dictate my heart, My mind and my heart argue, the first say’s stop seeing that man, he will just ruining your life, he just using you, you can’t get any benefit from him, but heartache and broken heart, pains that if you can’t control yourself it makes your life miserable or worst it makes you insane.. BUT….my stupid heart says. Go ahead niña follow what your hearts beats, just take the consequence later... huhuhu.. You’re the best person I’ve ever meet in my whole life and I know your wife is really proud of you. but sad to think your already made a vow to your wife that no matter what happen you will never leave her, and for the sake of my self esteem and dignity, I let you go coz I don’t want to be a stupid ass in your life forever hoping for nothing…. But only one thing I want you to know, I WILL KEEP YOU IN MY MIND AND HEART FOREVER, I won’t forget you, you’ll be a tattoo in my mind. And in a short time were together, you made me happy and I felt also you care. I know you’re a good man, the best Father to your kids, best husband and I’m just a temptation in your life. So, before I ruin your life I need to say, iloveyougoodbye…… take care always and GOD bless you forever…. Don’t worry I’m not with you physically but you’re always in my prayer…. That was only one thing I can share with you….. And letting each other go, it doesn’t mean I stop caring, if you need someone to talk to, just give me a call….. and I will be there….